i have not felt this shitty in ages, and its only because i got my period. i know you probably love hearing these details of my life but i am thrilled to say that this is the only time i get this severely sick. i truly rejoice in the thought of this, knowing where i once was and how far i have come from that deep dark place. i've let go of a lot in my life and i'm learning to live again. i cannot say that i have ever been this truly happy in my life. everything seems to be going to well and i'm not sad. sad like i once was. i finally have friends, true friends, true best friends who i would do absolutely anything for and i already know will be my best friends for the rest of my life. friends whom i am missing so much since we've been on break and had to go home. i'm living my life for myself, not for a boyfriend and not to please my parents, for myself. a huge vent, i know, but i need it. i love to actually see my life and happiness written out. i think this is also why my stomach doesn't hurt... i'm happy again. i'm too happy to care.

i wanted to share with you all my very first tattoo with i got about a week and a half ago. i got the phrase "this too shall pass". i got it because of my diagnosis with GP. whenever i was having one of those awful moments where i was just stuck in sickness and so down, and sad, my mom would always say this to me. apparently her mother said it to her whenever she was going through a hard time as well. it just means that everything will get better, the bad will go away, and things will be better once again. its such a beautiful and special quote to me that i had to get it as the perfect first tattoo. its perfect for GP suffers because its so true with the waves of sickness we all go through and over the improvement that i alone have seen over the past 3 years of having the disease. i hope you all like the tatt!