i have not felt this shitty in ages, and its only because i got my period. i know you probably love hearing these details of my life but i am thrilled to say that this is the only time i get this severely sick. i truly rejoice in the thought of this, knowing where i once was and how far i have come from that deep dark place. i've let go of a lot in my life and i'm learning to live again. i cannot say that i have ever been this truly happy in my life. everything seems to be going to well and i'm not sad. sad like i once was. i finally have friends, true friends, true best friends who i would do absolutely anything for and i already know will be my best friends for the rest of my life. friends whom i am missing so much since we've been on break and had to go home. i'm living my life for myself, not for a boyfriend and not to please my parents, for myself. a huge vent, i know, but i need it. i love to actually see my life and happiness written out. i think this is also why my stomach doesn't hurt... i'm happy again. i'm too happy to care.

i wanted to share with you all my very first tattoo with i got about a week and a half ago. i got the phrase "this too shall pass". i got it because of my diagnosis with GP. whenever i was having one of those awful moments where i was just stuck in sickness and so down, and sad, my mom would always say this to me. apparently her mother said it to her whenever she was going through a hard time as well. it just means that everything will get better, the bad will go away, and things will be better once again. its such a beautiful and special quote to me that i had to get it as the perfect first tattoo. its perfect for GP suffers because its so true with the waves of sickness we all go through and over the improvement that i alone have seen over the past 3 years of having the disease. i hope you all like the tatt!

hello everyone. i haven;t posted in so long because i guess there really isn't a need to. i've being doing so well i cant believe it. i rarely get sick anymore and when i do it only lasts two or three days. its really a miracle. i think college actually has helped. i love it so much and i'm so happy there. it seems like honestly when i go home i get sick. i dont know if its something in my house that is actually causing it though or if something there triggers stress or something bizarre like that but i dont understand it. i just got home on last wednesday for thanksgiving break and i'm here until sunday. i'm very excited for thanksgiving and i hope you all have an amazing holiday.

guess what! its that wonderful time of the month, well for me every 4 months. thank the lord that i was put on continuous birth control to eliminate some of my periods cause man, they are AWFUL. i woke up with paralyzing stomach nausea, missed my two classes, and slept till one. i barely left my dorm, let alone my room. back and fourth with nausea, waves of cramps, and massive pain in my ovary area really just makes the day so wonderful. in addition to my normal meds, i've taken some ibuprofen to ease the pain and basically laid down all day. i hardly ate. and threw up only once. my only secret to getting through periods with GP is to all out eliminate them. i couldn't handle month after month because the intense ill-ness would only be over just in time for a new period to begin. but people always enjoy tell me "i heard thats so bad for you" "you are not going to be able to have kids" this will hurt you in the long run." well actually no its not. my gynecologist, whom i adore and trust with my entire life, told me that there is no need to worry and that nothing bad can happen from increasing the time between periods. so i don't worry one bit. so off to more time in bed i go. waking up and taking a history exam tomorrow morning won't help my stomach, but hopefully i can get through the rest of the day.

i have been having the WORST allergies since thursday this week. well at least i think it's allergies. i'm pretty sure they are, and they are miserable. my entire head is full of crap and its running down my throat and evidently into my stomach making my decent stomach hurt like hell. i slept until 2 today and literally sat around wallowing in self pity over my body feeling like complete crap. and driving back to school for the wonderful hour and a half drive in the pouring rain and dark just added to the day. i'm going to go to the health center tomorrow after my classes to see if they have something to give me to stop this madness!

dear readers,

i cannot express my complete apologizes to all of you who have relied on my blog for information and tips about this awful disease. There has been so many things going on i put this blog on the back burner due to he fact that i don't have such a severe problem with my stomach. But since i've been getting emails about how my blog has helped them recently, i feel that i must start up my blog again and continue telling my story.

I have recently just began my first year of college, and I absolutely love it. For orientation i got a doctors excuse for when i scheduled my classes that they must be later in the morning/day. My earliest class is at 9:30 which is somewhat of a struggle to get up, but i can usually shake it off andcontinue my day on a high note. i only have three classes and a lab so the stress level is generally low. Two classes back to back on monday, wednesday, and friday going from 9:30 until 12:20. Then i;m done for the day. tuesday i only have history from 10 to 12 along with thursday when i have an additional lab from 2:45 to 5:45. i am really happy with all of my classes, especially my biology classes. being a biology major i adore this class and lab, even though its not exactly what i like to study in biology, ecology.

Now i know you all must be wondering how i do my food. There is one cafeteria and there are a couple restaurants somewhat like a food court in our union. all freshman had to get an unlimited meal plan for the cafeteria, but the food is from eat 'n park. not to diss that establishment, but their food is of the lowest quality and happened to make me sick every time that i ate there, no matter what it was. being vegetarian already limit my diet there, and what was left was salad, pizza, and pasta, along with some bizarre specials they would tend to make. all of these being the lowest quality and honestly awful to eat i would throw up almost every time iate there. so something had to change, they wanted to make me my own special menu there but i told them that it didn't work due to the quality of the food not the range in options. the good thing is in our union i have so many choices and can eat very well without getting sick. of course this place is more expensive and they had to change my meal plan completely to fit to this change in eating.

so now i can eat on campus, along with eating in my room. my dad got my a rice cooker, which i found that makes a lot more than just rice. i've made my favorite pasta roni and some mac and cheese without even leaving my room since microwaves are not allowed in out dorms. so i have a lot of options.

i've been drinking a lot of cold tea which seems to always keep my stomach settled along with me being awake and alert.i'll come up with some more way i have been dealing with college for my next post.

hope you all are feeling so well!

xoxo

i haven't blogged about gp in so long because i haven't felt bad in SO long. this is the first time i've felt completely ill and i think its a great thing. i've been able to do so much without feeling sick, and after my vomiting spells i feel much better after. my boyfriend has been with me through the entire time of my disease so he knows how to handle me and how to take care of me, which makes me so happy and gets me through the rough times. i'm just trying to live the happiest, most fun life possible, and not miss out on things i want to do in life.

today i puked for the first time in about 3 weeks. i don't think this has happened since this started over 2 years ago. though puking isn't the most fun activity in the world, i am happy with this progress and i didn't feel defeated when i threw up. this is all a first in an unbelievably long time. so i do believe that i am making good progress toward recovery and getting over this annoying disease. this makes me so happy, i feel like maybe i wont be stuck with this forever. it still gets annoying telling every new person i meet why i'm not in school and explaining exactly what is wrong with me, and hopefully i won't have to that when i get to college. speaking of which i got accepted to my number one school. so im pretty psyched. i pray that i am able to go and be able to experience college for all that its worth. not have to put aside my adult life and my life in general on hold. stay strong gpers.

hey everybody.

i've been so happy to be getting so many emails from you readers. i makes me so happy that i'm effecting people's lives and that i can help them get some answers and possibly feel a little better. so to all of you with questions dont forget my email is dancer4life129@zoominternet.net. i will answer ANY question, dont be afraid to ask, i'll get back to you asap.

so as they stomach goes i've been feeling so much better by getting a lot of the stress out of my life. if you can eliminate some of the things in life that give you anxiety DO IT! it has helped me alot. so has just living. i've been so tired of being kept up in my house that i've been going out and doing as much as i can whenever i can. it doesnt tend to keep my mind of my stomach. i'm tired of not living my life and doing the things i want because of this stupid disease. sometimes you have to stand up to the things that bring you down. i hope you all are doing okay. thanks for reading as always, and dont forget to ask me your questions!

screw you gastoparesis.

you cant beat me.

hello fellow gp haters,

i know i have not posted in SUCH a long time. i guess its only because nothing exciting or different has happened. just sick on and off and on and off.... i have taken to notice how much my emotions influence my stomach. whether it'd be stress, anger, happiness, or sadness, they each take a toll on my stomach. kindof weird to examine but it does make sense in a way, how much emotions can influence your body. so stay strong you beautiful people.